June 9, 2011
What was interesting about this OBE was the fact that I had multiple exits and multiple scenes that I interacted in, but as usual, my recall is limited to only a few specific details.
What I found this time was that I was enjoying so much more ‘movement’ with an apparent ability to instantaneously move to a new situation or scene without the usual long black tunnels and sensations of ‘time’ passing. I believe most of my lost recall is due to these multiple ‘instant’ scene changes.
As you may know from past posts, I try to use a single word recall for different parts to jog my memory once awake. I remember attempting to ‘pin’ one word signals to these various scenes, and was only able to hang onto the tags “door”, “stadium”, “comet”, “jet”, and “cuddle”, as key points to remember. The rest of the descriptions I write are formed from the ‘feelings’ and ‘emotions’ that are recalled with these signal words.
I do know I was ‘out’ multiple times, as the key word ‘door’ indicates. I remember thinking each time I found myself back to body that I wasn’t done and wanted out again! There was great control of my exits and each time I would take a moment to ‘feel’ the change in texture as I passed through my front door, which is why that stuck with me as a memory.
At one point in this OBE, while I was out flying fast and furious and enjoying my freedom, I heard someone call, ‘come look at this!’ I was just outside a “NASA” (my word to describe it) stadium like structure and was able to peek through an opening to see some football type game being played below. In another ‘porthole’, I remember seeing a young boy and young girl practicing some sort of gymnastic type activity with their feet involving balance.
The scene changed and now I find myself moving instantly to outer space, surrounded by darkness yet seeing this beautiful glowing planet before me. Initially I thought it was Earth, but as I got closer realized it had the same beautiful blue with white swirls but no land! I passed by it, not even pausing to check it out, and saw what I thought were more planets in the distance.
As they got closer, I saw beautiful ‘bubbling’ swirling colors all around it, and was surprised to see it swoosh past me with a glorious swirl of color extending far behind it. I knew now it was a comet, and turned to see another one just as beautiful with its colors and swirls, zooming past me on the other side!
I knew I was always ‘up high’ in these experiences, and have even a faint recall of being in a tropical type area with high mountains that I tried to fly up and over. The interesting part about this, though, was that as high as I moved, the mountains moved even higher! I had to eventually realize I was not going to get over them and stopped myself.
Looking down below, I distinctly remember thinking, “wow, good thing I’m not afraid of heights!” because of how high I was!
The most interesting recall of this multiple OBE is likely the ‘jet’ reference, as I remember finding myself inside a fighter plane as it flew. It was a more recent type plane, maybe WWII or later. I am just behind the pilot watching as he is engaged in a dogfight with another plane! I could see bullets hitting the windshield in front!
I’m watching closely, but what I found most interesting is the lack of ‘emotion’ attached to this ‘life or death’ scene! It was as if I had a ‘detached neutrality’ to it, knowing that it’s all part of a ‘human drama’ that ultimately was not necessary nor needed as a part of my ‘life’. It almost felt as though this was a past life, as I felt I was both the pilot and the one who watched. The feeling I had was, ‘yup, this was just something that happened’ and did not put any emotional tie to it at all.
The final ‘cuddle’ reference is when I found myself back on the couch, as I was in physical, but with a pair of masculine arms encircling my waist. Different from the previous experiences where I knew I was out in the ‘open’ and ‘up high’, this was more of a ‘near physical realm’ sensation. I was a bit hesitant as I felt this touch was just a bit too close, and I turned to see who this man was, as I was not afraid although I did not recognize him as anyone I knew.
He was talking to me and I was having difficulty understanding his words. I remember asking him a few times to please repeat what he’s saying, as I just couldn’t hear them clearly. I somehow knew he wanted to get ‘closer’ and tried to kiss me after placing his hands on my breasts. His kiss was not appealing at all, and I knew it was time to stop.
I woke with a bit of emotion that I had to ‘let go’ in order to try to fade back into the right mindstate for recall and was upset to forget so much! I was finally able to drift back, trying to reenter the experience with my recorder running to recall at least these particular scenes I’ve shared with you.
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