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Wednesday, November 28, 2007

31) Fun with my Guide (with Commentary)

Again, my first words on the recording I made was “it was so fabulous!” but I somehow knew as it was happening that I was not going to have full recall, but what I can recall still gives me such a wonderful feeling!

It’s been a rough few weeks for me in many ways and I had the intent I wanted to meet my guide, to know that I have this guidance, and that things will be ok.

I relaxed into the couch and remember getting the ‘floating’ feeling, so I try to raise my leg to see if it moves. It does so I roll over to get out, but this time I felt I had to pull myself out! For the first time, it was so hard to do! There was such a heavy pulling sensation back to the couch where I am lying. It felt as though part of me just wouldn’t separate!

I just kept pulling while I’m down on the floor, and then finally separated enough to quickly say “To the door!” at which time I felt lighter and moved away to the front door. I still couldn’t see (as always) and as I passed through the front door I entered a tunnel.

As I come out of the tunnel, I was up high over a ball game, with a beautiful nighttime sky above me. The stars were absolutely spectacular and remember remarking that I have never seen such a beautiful sky!

As I went down toward the ball field and surrounding areas, I make a mental note to remember what I was seeing, because somehow I knew that I was not going to be able to recall a lot of what was going to happen. I took note of the people walking around, the beautiful water fountains, and an old-fashioned fair-like atmosphere.

I then pulled back upward, to those beautiful stars, wanting to go see them. I thought of the moon and that I might want to go see that as well, but then when I looked, there were TWO moons, very huge, and very different in their appearance. I believe it was due to this unusual and unexpected double moon, that I no longer wanted to travel there.

It was at that point that I felt someone come up along side of me on my left. I knew it was a young man yet I couldn’t see him, I just felt him and could hear him talking. I remember saying ‘hey, you’re here! but I can’t see you!”

He says in a teasing, fun sort of way, “oh, you can’t?” I feel so joyous, so happy and carefree! I ask, “how come I can’t see you… I want to!” So to be funny, he kind of made his one leg with a boot on it appear at my side, and I remember laughing and saying ‘hey, no fair, I want to see more than your foot!”

I really don’t have much recall as to what and where we went next but I know I was with him the entire time, and we traveled far and wide. I did eventually get to ‘see’ him, but all I can recall is dark wavy hair, much like the one I have mention before. It was so much fun being with him.

There were a few details I could remember we did together. I remember at one point just flying around, and as we were traveling, and instead of going up and over a hill, I wanted to go through it so I did. I again could feel the chance in ‘consistency’ as I passed through it, just as I knew there were other ‘things’ I passed through on my travels.

In talking with him, he said something about his friend that he met his end with, and I felt like it was a car accident with his friend who was driving. I don’t think he actually told me this, but rather I ‘felt’ this information as it came from him. I am not really sure if he was talking about his own 'end' or his friend's, or even perhaps both.

Again I remembered I wanted to go to the moon and said to him, ‘Come on! let’s go!” thinking I'd like to take off and fly up there. I was surprised though, when he said to me (in a teasing, fun sort of way), “you always do it the slow way!” So I explain that I just love the freedom of movement and the feeling of flight that I have! (I am assuming the ‘fast way’ is the thought travel method, where you just think of where you want to be and you are!)

Another recall is being in a ‘factory’, but not really a factory (?) It had different rooms, and I met with so many different people! My guide took me through all these different places, and even wanted me to go meet the ‘hey girls’ (?), but I can’t remember much about who or what that was.

I remember seeing a pregnant girl, which made me think of wanting to see my (for real) soon-to-be grandbaby, but I somehow knew that it was ‘too late’ because the baby is “already there”. I saw pink fluff on floor, and everyone all around was watching the fluff as it sizzled on the floor!

Everyone there was doing something they enjoyed and it was such a fun atmosphere to be in. As I came back out into another room, I suddenly felt naked, and tried to hide behind a plant as a woman came by knocking on a window trying to get the attention of some other girls who needed to get a door open for her.

I also remember trying to get him to tell me his name (as I have done in previous travels!) and again he was trying to NOT have a name assigned to him. I was able to get some answer, but I think he said ‘Howie’ or something with that sound. I was a two part name but I can’t recall it. He really didn’t want me to have a name assigned to him anyway.

It was so just so much fun, and at the end I remember he told me I was to call him at a certain time (6 pm?). He gave me a phone number that I tried to memorize. It was some number like 1-800-CALLME with an extension that had my name in it (?). I felt if I could remember it then I could talk to him anytime. Of course, I forgot it.

The scene immediately went into another sequence that involved a bear and my sister, but because I now was aware I was ‘dreaming’ I actually made myself wake up to record this experience because I knew I was already forgetting a lot that happened!

In general, though, the goal of this experience was to have some sort of validation that I am not alone and that help is around. It’s not been a great few weeks for me, and just remembering all the fun and love that I experienced gives me back my more positive outlook on life and the validation that we are not alone in our journeys.


One of the important aspects of this experience was to know that assistance is always out there when you ask with the intent of receiving an answer. Not just intent, but knowing it will occur. There is so much you can do with focused intent and confidence in its manifestation!

I have heard of others speak about difficulty in separating when going OOB, but this was the first time I encountered it! Way back in the beginning, I can remember having 'helping hands' to assist me which I think made it a bit easier for me to learn.

I am not sure why I had this difficulty at this time, but perhaps due to a recent health issue and getting off some potent medications, it occurred. However, I can certainly understand now the frustration that others express when one part of the 'body' won't separate completely!

The trick to learn if you encounter this, I think, is doing exactly what I did. Remembering that you have to focus your intent away from the body and completely accept the fact that you are already there after stating, "to the door!", then action always follows thought!

This 'guide' I encountered is someone I have met before (see blogs #17 & #22), and when I call him 'guide', I get the feeling of just that....someone who is at my level of energy to guide me wherever I need to go. I do not get the feeling of 'higher dimensions/energy' that some claim to have the fortune to meet, but I am still very happy to have him by my side!

There is always such lighthearted fun and excitement when he's around! Although I never feel specifically directed to certain aspects of an experience, I am sure he plays a key role in having me experience whatever it is I need to learn at that time.

A recurring theme I see lately is the feeling of nakedness that occurs within an experience. (also see blog #26) I am not sure if this is just my insecurities in having all my thoughts completely known to those I encounter in the astral realm, or if it is symbolic of my own insecurities in physical life.

This need for a name is also an issue with me, as I know I always ask for one! I have read that many times a guide will not give you one because it will then 'color' your perceptions of who (s)he is. That makes sense to me, but my control issues like to have a name!! lol

Lastly, I know I am always concerned that I will not be able to get in touch with my guides when I need them and so I think that is the reason I felt so adamant that I had to remember his 'phone number'. However, I am constantly being shown that all I have to do is ask (and expect) and help is always there!

Sunday, November 18, 2007

30) Another Retrieval? LD but Not Aware

This was actually the second experience within the same night. I had gone to bed with the intent to 'go within' and/or assist in a retrieval. Little did I know that I would get both in the same night!

(The first was definitely 'Inward now!' experience, but it was very much a personal experience that I have not posted here since I don't feel it would be helpful to anyone but me...but then again, that's what 'going within' is for!)

November 18, 2007

First recall I have is of driving my former full-size van into the parking lot of our local bank/post office. Standing at the side of the building was a man who, at first, looked very much like my brother. He was just standing there, with a gas can placed at his feet, watching me enter.

Thinking this person could possibly be my brother, I pulled up next to him and asked if he needed a ride, thinking he was out of gas. I then realized this was not my brother when he said "Sure! I have to get to (name of nearby town)".

Now I’m a bit concerned as I am not in the habit of picking up strangers and giving them a ride. (I am not aware I am dreaming therefore do not have my usual ‘awareness’.)

I believe I said something like "oh, you’re not my brother, but I guess I still should give you a ride since I offered" and he indicated that he’d sure appreciate it.

So now I am trying to turn the van around to face the exit, backing up, and being very careful about my maneuvering since it’s such a large vehicle. As I turn back to see where I am going, I notice the man walking to the side of the car, putting on a motorcycle helmet. I think, ‘oh no, he’s going to want to put his motorcycle in the back of the van!’

Now I’m really concerned about giving this guy a ride, and the next thing I know, the man is yelling "watch out!" as I see him falling to the ground. Thinking I am about to run over him, I pull forward to move away and see that he is now irate, talking to a group of people who suddenly appeared around him, telling them all about this ‘crazy woman’ who tried to run him over!

I remember thinking, "well, this is not going to be something I want to stay around for" so I proceed to drive off, yelling back to the man that giving him a ride is not really a good idea at this time.

As I pull out of the parking lot onto the road, I look back (worried that he is still talking about me and that he may be injured on the ground), I am surprised to see that there is no one anywhere in the parking lot!

As I continue down the road, I am aware of a huge dust cloud coming at me, that fully encompasses the van I am driving. It is at this point I realize that I am 'dreaming' and the entire scene fades before I can do anything more.

In reflecting on this experience, I believe this may have been a ‘blind’ retrieval since I was not fully aware of what I was participating in, but the scenario fits the description of what I have read to be a retrieval. This man needed to have some intervention that would take him out of his ‘locked-in belief’ that he was still in physical and waiting for someone to help him.

Those who do not ‘cross over’ fully upon ‘death’ usually have such strong beliefs in their physical-ness that they are unable to see others in spirit who are always there to try to help him move on. Their very strong belief that they are still 'in flesh' do not permit them to 'see' anything other than what they 'think' is real.

My arrival was ‘seen’ by this man as I was more ‘physical’ (lower energy vibration) than his spirit helpers (due to my OOB state). This caused him to change his view of his current (stuck) situation enough to be open to the possibility of others coming to help, which therefore allowed him to 'see' his spirit helpers who assisted him to move on.

Although I would have liked to have been more 'aware' during this experience, in hindsight, I feel it still could have been a retrieval of sorts since I did eventually become 'aware' at the very end.

Perhaps if I had conscious 'awareness' during the experience, I may not have handled it the same way or in the right manner.

Anyone have any other thoughts about this experience?

Saturday, November 17, 2007

29) Energy Work Pre-OOB

November 17, 2007

I had awakened early in the am by a phone call and then went back to bed, dozing in a lighter level of sleep. I recall that I was surprised to suddenly feel my legs being picked up together, moving up and down, and then in all different positions. Because of past experience with this same ‘feeling’, I knew this was the beginning of ‘getting out’ and just went along with whatever was happening.

I could feel ‘hands’ on different parts of my back and sides creating warm and tingly sensations and was given the thought that maybe this was not time to go OOB, as it felt as though some ‘energy work’ was going on.

At this point, I KNOW I am lying in bed, and am fully aware of ‘hands’ moving and working on my body. Next I heard the radio (so I thought) come on, and knowing my husband was next to me not moving, it made me think, “ no, it can’t be the radio or he would be doing something about it.”

So I listen to the narrator-like voice that is talking, trying not to move (because my legs are still being moved and hands are still working on my body). It was very difficult to make out the words, and I didn’t think to use the ‘clarity now’ because I wasn’t really sure what was going on. I do remember getting the feeling that the narrator was telling me what I need to do to ‘help my understanding’ but cannot recall exactly what was being said.

Next thing I knew I was pulled down by my feet, almost off the bottom of the bed! My husband then moves in bed, so I think, “well that’s it, it’s over, I’m awake.” I got out of bed and remember seeing a large amount of nuts and pieces of something all over the bedroom rug, thinking ‘good grief, why are these here?’ (My cue to become aware I’m OOB, but again, didn’t pick up on it!)

My husband got up to go to the bathroom, and I heard him say something about, ‘who put these here?’ and as I entered the bathroom to see what he was looking at, I realized there was water flooding the bathroom, with 2-3” of water on the floor and quickly heading out the door!

I ran to the phone to call for help, but had trouble dialing because I realized it was a new phone that my husband must have purchased as a surprise for me. I was eventually able to dial out for help, but then the scene faded and I was SO surprised to wake up for real in the bed, with my husband still sleeping quietly beside me!

This was an interesting experience in that it's been a long time since I 'felt' those hands on my 'body'. It happened quite regularly in the beginning, and I feel it is probably my 'otherworldly friends' assisting me to get back into the proper levels to continue on in my experiences.

28) Increasing Awareness

November 4, 2007 11:31pm

First recall was that it was Christmas time and I was going to show Santa how to fly again, reminding him how to do it, like it was something I did every year! It was then that I realized ‘hey, wait! I actually CAN do this’ so then I took off and I knew I was out.

Next I remember I was in my mother's house with my mother and two brothers standing around talking. Mom was cleaning something, going up high to get cobwebs out of an area near the ceiling, like a bookshelf.

I remember I was all over the room, flying up high, down low, all around, just smiling and enjoying myself because I knew they had no idea I was there but that it was so much fun going around to all different parts of the room.

The whole time I was out and going around the room, I had this ‘knowing’ that I could just ‘think’ in order to maintain being out. I just had to ‘think’ that I’m out so that meant I can do anything!

I remember thinking that because I’m out, I don’t have to ‘walk’ down the stairs, I knew I could just throw myself down the stairs and it wouldn’t matter because nothing could happen to me! It didn’t matter how I got down the stairs, so I decided I’d just jump down on my back because I knew I couldn’t get hurt. So I did!

It was the same ‘thinking’ that was going on while I’m flying around to parts of the room where they were talking, and I was just enjoying the fun and excitement of being out and KNOWING I am out!

At one point, as I ‘flew’ past my mother, I touched her back right calf and she jumped quickly and went “oh!” looking back to see what did that. I remember I was surprised to see that I could create a physical sensation on her!

I never realized I could create a physical sensation on someone ‘still in body’. Mom then attributed the sensation to the fact it must have been one of the cats brushing up against her. Later, I remember seeing one of the cats in the room and ‘skooted’ the cat to make her run quickly past Mom so she would be able to think it really was the cat that did it.

I remember that as Mom was talking to the boys, she got distracted and came down from the ladder from the area she was cleaning. She looked up to the spot and said something about ‘aw look, I didn’t even get all the cobwebs’, and at that point I flew up there and said, ‘don’t worry, mom, I’ll get them!’ I flipped my arm through them, despite knowing she couldn’t hear or see me but I was having such fun flying around and doing things.

This was another 'first' for me in that I was fully 'aware' of being out to the point that I knew I could not get injured. I find there is more 'awareness' of the difference in astral vs. physical being incorporated into my OOB experiences.

27) OBE vs. dream

Well, things have been busy here and I haven't been posting my recent experiences since I felt they were not as 'exciting' as many of them posted here.

However, in reading over what I wrote, I think that posting even those that are 'nothing special' may help others to see how their experiences compare. If even one person can be helped, then it will have been worth it. Please don't hesitate to share with me your own experiences, as I love to know that what I do helps others!

This 'dream' was probably a combination OBE/lucid dream:

October 28, 2007 5:51am

I became aware I was 'dreaming', but not sure I was really out of body as it felt like I could be, but the scene I was in was a familiar one I encounter frequently. I was driving my car very fast, trying to get home because it’s snowing and having to maneuver between snow banks that were built up on the sides of the road. I was thinking “I guess I have to be careful driving in case I’m really driving(!), but once I’m home I’m out-of-body!”

At that point I took off, pulled back quickly, floating up high, and I could hear a female voice singing something about ‘beautiful blue skies’ in a voice louder than I would have liked. It then became static and crackled and faded out.

My dog made some noise in the room, which brought me to more awareness but I could still ‘see’ in a central circle area my mother’s table, and my mother’s hands holding a baby… (I am expecting my first grandchild in a few weeks, this may be related.)

The next scene I remembered I was with two other women, a doctor I work for, and another guy who came up to us and said ‘if I had known you came from there, it would have saved me some work!’ Now he has to make beds and do some care...(?)

We are standing in a familiar place, an office of sorts, talking about ‘Nancy’ wanting to play something in 16 countries (I have no idea who Nancy is for real) and I remembered talking about the doctor having two cars – with the white one (which was the ‘good’ one) parked downstairs behind the office.

As you can see this has a lot of 'personal' issues interspersed, but the fact that I was not sure I was OOB, yet took the safe decision to drive carefully just in case I really wasn't, was an unusual occurence for me.

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Life Goes On

I just thought I'd add a quick note to those who visit here regularly for updates. Due to 'life issues' and other concerns, there has been other priorities that I have had to deal with in the recent weeks.

There are still a few times I have recorded some 'dream activity' over the past weeks, but there is little that I feel would interest others. I may still find the time at some point to post them here, but for now, please keep checking back for updates.

I WILL be back in full swing as soon as I can! I INTEND it to happen! :-)