February 20, 2012
I woke as I sometimes do about 3 am and had difficulty falling back asleep. Figuring it was a good time to try for another OBE, I affirmed my intention to help others if I could as I always like to do.
Just as I was falling back to sleep, in that in-between state of asleep and awake, I thought I heard someone calling ‘mom’ or ‘ma’..…a little voice crying out, and when I heard it again, I said “I’m here!” with my thoughts. What I did feel was that this was NOT my child, but one that needed someone.
I then came into awareness of being in my bed in my bedroom, and sensing the movement of an intense energy in the form of a small child coming into my bedroom from the doorway.
My heart was pounding, trying to stay calm, as I could feel something different about this energy and somehow knew it was going to be a ‘difficult’ experience for me.
I realized it was a small child, a boy about age 3 or 4, very upset, crying and very much in turmoil. He moved to the empty side of my bed and climbed up next to me.
Immediately I ‘felt’ and saw his life, the abuse, the sadness, the extreme depth of emotion he had as he sobbed uncontrollably next to me.
I had him lie on the pillow, on his belly and his face was away from me so I could not see his appearance. He was small in frame, and all I could do was pat his back and rub him gently, trying to sooth his sobs. I remember doing this for what I felt to be a long time.
I reached for his head, to rub his hair and stroke his cheek after he was quiet for a bit. He turned over to face me, and curled up tightly against my shoulder and neck, cuddling me, and with a tiny bit of a sob to his voice, asks, “Am I home now?”
I was so emotionally overwhelmed with the unexpected question that I didn’t know what to do. I think my emotions did not allow me to continue on energetically effectively, as I was desperate to help. I remember actually speaking out loud, ‘do you see anyone?’ trying to get him to see those who I knew were there for him.
With the audible words, I was immediately awake…and alone. I have no idea if I was of any help, but am so hoping that just the idea that I was able to get him to stop running and crying and to settle down, enabled him to move on to where he needed to go.
This was so emotionally draining for me. I woke crying with emotional release at his depth of sadness and the turmoil that he experienced in his short life. I desperately hope he’s in a better place now…
ADDENDUM: Through a discussion with other members of the Astral Projectors group on Facebook (which anyone is welcome to join, just ask!), it seems that this experience may have been much more than 'just' a retrieval as I originally thought.
It seems that a psychic friend felt that there was a 'Carrie' great grandmother who helped this child to 'move on'....and it just so happens that THIS is the name of MY grandmother, the one whom I just saw during the OBE two weeks ago!! (click here for post) AND....that SAME day I had this experience, my son informs me that he and his wife are expecting a new child this summer!!
I almost now feel that perhaps this could be another premonition of my grandchild to be...similar to the one I had before my FIRST grandchild!! (click here for post) ...including the comment!) Since I'll not know for sure until it happens, if this newest grandchild is a boy....then I'll be almost certain this was the case!
Monday, February 20, 2012
Sunday, February 19, 2012
168) Wine Effects, Sending Energy Attempt
I have to start this experience with some background so as you can understand maybe why things happened as they did.
I had not expected to get OOB this morning, so had no focus or intention set as to what exactly I would do if I did. That is a key point in maintaining a degree of control when you start your induction, although I have to add, that I also had had a few glasses of wine prior to bed and think that my ‘consciousness’ was also not fully ‘awake’ to maintain the control either!! Lol
I remember waking about 4am and needing something to drink, having already dreamed I had downed an entire bottle with gusto! Lol I felt awake enough to think about possibly attempting to get OOB, but knew that many times alcohol impacts your ability to do so, so didn’t focus too much on trying.
Getting back to sleep, I remember starting to feel a ‘swaying’ motion…actually thinking, ‘oh dear! I did have too much to drink’!! lol But then knew that this rocking motion could easily be amplified and turned into an OBE, so worked on doing that.
I felt my upper torso swaying back and forth, and then focused on moving even a hand or foot astrally. It was enough that I soon became aware of BOTH my legs being held straight upright off the bed!!! At first I wasn’t sure I was even asleep, that maybe I really HAD raised my legs this high!
Knowing this wasn’t likely, I just assumed it was my astral body, and tried to roll out. It was a bit difficult to separate, but eventually I did find myself standing in my bedroom facing to door to leave. Realizing I was out, I was thrilled, and found myself starting to float up and through the bedroom ceiling.
However, just before exiting the room, I remembered what Jaime in the Astral Projectors group on Facebook did once. He was able to send him own sleeping body healing energy while he was out, and I wanted to do that too!
I turned around and easily saw my body lying on the bed under the covers. For some reason, my face was covered or not clearly visible. (Again, as you may know from previous posts, I believe it is my own preference NOT to see my face as it is possible my ‘mind’ may not be able to process the actual fact that I am in two places at once without return to body).
I move closer to the bed, with the intention of sending energy to my body, but was shocked to feel that the closer I got to my body on the bed, the less ability I had to ‘see’ it clearly, as it appeared to emit some sort of wavy distorted energy or vibrations that did not feel good.
I knew enough to not press this attempt, as you know with any type of ‘negative’ response you are likely to return to body, so I turned back around and continued to float up and out of the bedroom ceiling.
Now, I was not in control of where I was going, whether lack of intent or too much wine, but I found myself outside the house in the dark above my front yard. I could see a ray of light with what looked like rain coming down in the lit area, and moved closer to see what it was.
Entering the light, I could see it was a ‘spotlight’ of sorts off to the side of the yard, and I could feel the ‘tingles’ of what I thought was rain. (In real life, it was not raining at that time, so I have no idea what it was)
Flying through the trees that line my property, I hear children walking along the road behind my house and moved to go see what was going on with them. I thought, because it was early morning, that perhaps they were on their way to the school bus stop. I thought it was sad that they had to walk to the bus stop in such darkness.
It was at that time I was totally taken into a lucid dream that I have very little recall of once awake. In hindsight, I do think that perhaps my ‘woozy’ body was emitting those peculiar energy waves due to its destabilized state, and the lack of control and my memories of the LD were also affected.
However, I am happy that at least I remembered to try to send energy to my body when out, so that means maybe next time with an improved physical body and mind, I’ll succeed!
I had not expected to get OOB this morning, so had no focus or intention set as to what exactly I would do if I did. That is a key point in maintaining a degree of control when you start your induction, although I have to add, that I also had had a few glasses of wine prior to bed and think that my ‘consciousness’ was also not fully ‘awake’ to maintain the control either!! Lol
I remember waking about 4am and needing something to drink, having already dreamed I had downed an entire bottle with gusto! Lol I felt awake enough to think about possibly attempting to get OOB, but knew that many times alcohol impacts your ability to do so, so didn’t focus too much on trying.
Getting back to sleep, I remember starting to feel a ‘swaying’ motion…actually thinking, ‘oh dear! I did have too much to drink’!! lol But then knew that this rocking motion could easily be amplified and turned into an OBE, so worked on doing that.
I felt my upper torso swaying back and forth, and then focused on moving even a hand or foot astrally. It was enough that I soon became aware of BOTH my legs being held straight upright off the bed!!! At first I wasn’t sure I was even asleep, that maybe I really HAD raised my legs this high!
Knowing this wasn’t likely, I just assumed it was my astral body, and tried to roll out. It was a bit difficult to separate, but eventually I did find myself standing in my bedroom facing to door to leave. Realizing I was out, I was thrilled, and found myself starting to float up and through the bedroom ceiling.
However, just before exiting the room, I remembered what Jaime in the Astral Projectors group on Facebook did once. He was able to send him own sleeping body healing energy while he was out, and I wanted to do that too!
I turned around and easily saw my body lying on the bed under the covers. For some reason, my face was covered or not clearly visible. (Again, as you may know from previous posts, I believe it is my own preference NOT to see my face as it is possible my ‘mind’ may not be able to process the actual fact that I am in two places at once without return to body).
I move closer to the bed, with the intention of sending energy to my body, but was shocked to feel that the closer I got to my body on the bed, the less ability I had to ‘see’ it clearly, as it appeared to emit some sort of wavy distorted energy or vibrations that did not feel good.
I knew enough to not press this attempt, as you know with any type of ‘negative’ response you are likely to return to body, so I turned back around and continued to float up and out of the bedroom ceiling.
Now, I was not in control of where I was going, whether lack of intent or too much wine, but I found myself outside the house in the dark above my front yard. I could see a ray of light with what looked like rain coming down in the lit area, and moved closer to see what it was.
Entering the light, I could see it was a ‘spotlight’ of sorts off to the side of the yard, and I could feel the ‘tingles’ of what I thought was rain. (In real life, it was not raining at that time, so I have no idea what it was)
Flying through the trees that line my property, I hear children walking along the road behind my house and moved to go see what was going on with them. I thought, because it was early morning, that perhaps they were on their way to the school bus stop. I thought it was sad that they had to walk to the bus stop in such darkness.
It was at that time I was totally taken into a lucid dream that I have very little recall of once awake. In hindsight, I do think that perhaps my ‘woozy’ body was emitting those peculiar energy waves due to its destabilized state, and the lack of control and my memories of the LD were also affected.
However, I am happy that at least I remembered to try to send energy to my body when out, so that means maybe next time with an improved physical body and mind, I’ll succeed!
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